Today. Today is the day after. The day after a troubled day, one of those days in life when all seems to go the wrong way, and plans, ideas and feelings are smashed all around, and you just can't get hold of the whole process. Until it's done, by itself. And as it came, it just went away, a hurricane devastating every single bit of matter and spirit, and then just leaving you as nothing had happened.
Today the sun shines bright, literally, the rain has been chased away, streets and lawns are drying in the warm sunlight, and you feel... empty. Tired, a little bit, slow, a little bit more, and astonished, much indeed. You don't feel sad, or angry, or anguished, or bad in some other way. You just feel as many of the things you've carried along with you for a long long time have been just taken abruptly away from you and thrown away. You feel as if all those things will never come back again, into you, and at the same time you feel estranged from all of them. It's that kind of "sitting on the dock of the bay"-feeling just watching thoughts, emotions, ideas, plans and certainties vanish in the sun. And you breathe, and breathe, and breathe, keeping your mind detached (as much as possible), keeping your heart calm, your emotions flowing, your faith untouched. Just observing. To be honest, you wouldn't be able to do much more now about all of this. So, just be the observer. Have faith. And be the observer. And breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
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